The question I find constantly running through my mind, “what is wrong with me?” We talked about this topic about a month ago at church and I find myself constantly asking myself this question.
Why am I constantly doing things that I know I shouldn’t? Why do I continue to sin when I know what is right and what is wrong? In all aspects of my life, I am constantly wondering why I continue to fall short of the glory of God.
Romans 8:15 says, “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.”
Can anyone else relate to this verse? I know I can. It’s crazy how those words were written in the bible hundreds of years ago and we can still relate to that. Blows my mind. Many days I find myself just wondering why I do the things I do and then I find myself in a downward spiral leading to guilt and shame. Then I remember that the Lord shows me mercy and love even though I sin and let my flesh win.
Now in Romans 8:18 Paul writes, “For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, my flesh. I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.”
I struggle constantly with fighting everything my flesh wants and what my flesh does. And if I am honest, my flesh wins 90% of the time. By God’s grace, he saves me every day even when I fail, and I fail a lot. I am so thankful that my God is a good and loving father, who looks upon my sinful self and loves me just the same. Wanna know some amazing news? He loves you too even amidst your sin.
SO, how do we do better? How do we stop letting out flesh win every battle? It is by confessing my sins and praying to Jesus asking for forgiveness, at least that is what I do. I find when I talk to God and pray I keep myself in check. When I am not talking with Him, I am 99% of the time out of line. So it’s important to hold yourself accountable and possibly have someone help you stay accountable! Whenever you find yourself wondering “what is wrong with me?” just pray, breathe, and remember who your father is.