When my sweet friend asked me to share my testimony I didn’t even know where to begin so I’m just going to dive right in and hopefully ya’ll keep up.
Flashback to 13 years ago, I was just a normal high school girl going through the typical teenage struggles. I had a great friend who was deeply involved with church and I just longed to have a positive outlook on life that shined out of her daily. I always thought “church girls” weren’t the cool thing to be so naturally I avoided it at all costs. One week I was going through a rough patch & being the loving friend she is she invited me to an Easter service her youth group was having.
Desperate for change, I tagged along in hopes to find a light at the end of my dark tunnel. I remember walking in the church questioning everything about faith and praying the most desperate prayer “Lord IF you’re even up there I need you to show me. I need a sign that you’re real. I don’t want to leave this church feeling the way I did when I walked in.” As the night went on my heart got heavier and I couldn’t make sense of it. I just kept repeating the same prayer over and over. It was a few minutes before the service was ending and I became so frustrated that God didn’t swoop down from heaven and say “HEYYY, I’m right here! I’m REAL! Stop doubting me”. I remember thinking to myself at that moment “see, this is exactly why I don’t come, God doesn’t care about me” and before I could grasp what I said my heart got so tight, and I got a lump in my throat and I started to panic. I literally thought I was having a heart attack. The best way to describe was it felt like was that someone was literally GRABBING my heart. I fell to my knees crying and I heard God say “It’s okay, you don’t have to worry anymore. I’m here now”. I couldn’t stand, I couldn’t move. I literally had to have my friend drive me home because the Holy Spirit was overwhelming every ounce of me. I prayed the entire night and it honestly felt like God was right beside me the entire time. The next day at school everyone and everything just looked totally different and I knew for a fact that God had moved in my heart.
Flash forward to when I turned 26 and finally decided to get baptized. I wanted to be sure I was ready to change my ways and live a life according to God and not my own. I didn’t want to flip flop back and forth with what I know is right and wrong. It was the best decision I’ve made in my “adult life”. Since then I’ve come so far with my faith and my relationship with Jesus Christ. I was baptized in the Holy Spirit last year and since then nothing has been the same. When I pray now I know God’s listening. I feel him throughout my day. The Holy Spirit overwhelms me ALL the time and I have moments where I just cry and praise God because he’s just THAT good and I don’t deserve the love he provides DAILY. When my grandfather was dying in the hospital, I was so convinced the Lord was going to heal him and have him walk out of the hospital (crazy faith lol but I was THAT confident). I remember riding to Gainesville to visit him in the hospital and I read my bible the entire way and was just praying for the Lord to fill me with the Holy Spirit so strong that everyone could feel it. Walking through the hospital I kept repeating the same prayer and asking God to just fill the hospital room with his presence. My papa was talking to my father and I grabbed his hand and closed my eyes and just kept praying for the Lord to fill the room. My papa started crying out of nowhere and when my dad asked him what was wrong, he literally said “I feel the Holy Spirit” and my dad and I both started crying. To be able to witness my prayer answered so IN MY FACE is an experience I want EVERYONE to have. He may not have been healed and able to walk out of that room, but I knew for a fact that the Lord was with him and holding him close and that in itself was the best-answered prayer I could’ve ever received.
Nobody can tell me God isn’t real. Nobody can tell me the Lord doesn’t hear our prayers. God’s will is nothing like ours and I’m so thankful for that! Our God is SO good and all he’s wanting is for us all to surrender and give it all to him so that he can move in our hearts and work his miracles. It’s never too late to turn your life over to him and I just pray that everyone can experience the overwhelming love and peace that God’s presence brings.